Pale and dull the blue fades and Is swallowed into any sort of.darkness found. You’re smile inevitably makes my heart sink. The thought of you sends shivers down my spine and sweat through my fingertips. I’ve spent so long in the dark, you are my savior. My Sun, my source of light, warmth, and direction. For 6 months I was enveloped in a world one could only dream of. And then, the hidden impulse of stupidity swept over me and you were no longer there. It was dark&cold and I was lost. I lay here where you left me. Wounded and ready to give in to the sweet temptation of death, so I did. Still lost, still dark, and colder than ever my lifeless body remains as a reminder of what could’ve been.
I had this idea, that we could be perfect. That we’d always be there for each other no matter what happened. No matter how bad either of us messed up. The truth was I was the only one who thought that. I was the only one who truly believed it could work. We could be something great. I fooled myself into the thought of someone truly loving me, and having the power to stay with me no matter what mistake I made. This falsehood drowned the cruel reality that there will never be someone like that. No one will ever understand me the way I understand everyone. No one will ever put up with me. No one will want too. And why should they ? I’m aggressive, rude, Moody, sarcastic, and a bit insane. In my dreams I never imagine a husband, it’s always me. Just me. In a huge house with my Jonah.. and for the split second we were together and I was happy, I imagined us. It was no longer me and Jonah. It was you Jonah and I, and this time he had your round blue green eyes. You’ve poisoned my system with your disease. I feel it. I feel you, running through my veins and eating at my flesh. This is no longer a relationship, but a game of strength.
There’s more to me. But no one wants to listen…
My wife and I got matching “Infinity x Infinity” tattoos. It was my first tattoo, and my wife’s 6th. We both work where we can’t regularly wear our wedding bands, so we decided to get matching ring tattoos.
Chris from Main Street Tattoo, in Jacksonville, AR, USA
I love being the one to make Everyone happy, I love being the person people go to, but I’ve come to realize that none of the people I make smile or I’m there for give a shit about me. None of you are ever there for me. And yet I still go out of my way to comfort you. Fuck that.